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I sat up and put my feet on the cold tile floor when I heard Wonka and Chase arguing. “We have to,” I heard Wonka whisper. “It’s way too dangerous.” “They would try and do it for us.” “And they’d die doing it. Besides it’s been half an hour since we heard it…it’s too late. Even if we got there without being detected and attacked…I’m sorry, but it’s just too late.” I already knew what they were talking about. One of the other groups had been attacked…I was reluctant to find out whom. I couldn’t speak. Not yet. I was tired of waking up like that. I still am. It seems every day when I get up the guys have some other bit of bad news. I couldn’t bring myself to ask. I just walked into the hall to let them know I was awake. Wonka started when he saw me, but his voice was quiet. It was something we had all started to do over these last two months. “Hey,” he muttered hesitantly. They didn’t know that I had already heard. I could see Wonka trying to work up the courage to tell me what happened. Chase just stared at the floor. “Who is it?” I said. “E304,” was all Wonka had to say. It was Barbour’s group. “Okay, so what do we know?” I asked. “We can’t see anything from the outside. We just heard Dennis break through on the walkie. We couldn’t figure out what he was saying…it was scared whispering mostly…the only thing I could really make out was, ‘LG’s gone.’” I sighed and leaned against the door frame. I had to fight back the lump in my throat. I knew better than to hope. I’ve done that too many times over the past two months just to be let down. Wonka picked the argument back up where he left off before I arrived, “We have to at least get Dennis out of there.” “If they have LG they have Dennis…and probably Barbour too,” Chase impatiently replied. “You don’t know that!” “I know that they haven’t answered the walkie for the past thirty minutes!” “Shut up.” I was calm when I said it. The stark contrast of my composure to their agitation was all I needed to get the point across. “We’ve already wasted enough time. You’re both right, they would probably die if they tried to save us, but they would try. So who’s going to go; because I sure as hell don’t want to?” There was no point trying to act brave. Everyone knows I panic when I’m anywhere near one of the Z’s. Wonka and Chase looked at each other. They both looked at me and replied in unison: “Hinton.” I couldn’t help but give a morbid chuckle. Hinton. He almost didn’t even seem affected when Martin was quarantined and then isolated. I remember the first time we were attacked. He took down three of the Zeds before picking up a weapon. I wish I had his strength. But more than that, I wish I had an ounce of his courage. I stepped past them into the hallway and walked down to Hinton’s room at the end of the hall. It’s funny he was always so crazy and didn’t seem well put together. But now, he’s been our protector, almost like a father. Well maybe more of an eccentric uncle. He and Chase taught us some self defense that they learned in basic training. These things wouldn’t help much in hand to hand with Zs, but it did help keep us in some kind of shape. He’s also taught us odd and much more useful skills like lock picking…he’s even been joking about ways to get a Zed in captivity to help me face my fear. I couldn’t help but smile at the thought. I guess he’s still got some of that craziness in him. Chase knocked and the doorknob turned. “Hey!” Hinton quietly boomed in his normal jovial voice. But his tone soon changed when he looked at our faces. His smile was quickly replaced by worry as he asked, “What’s going on?” We explained the situation and Hinton began gathering his things. He turned around and handed me his baseball bat, smiled, and said, “Let’s go.” I looked at him and he looked right back at me. He wasn’t joking. “You’re going to have to get over it sometime. You can’t stay inside forever.” “I know that…” “Then let’s go!” Putting his arm around my neck and grinning as he said it. I looked at Wonka. I could tell from the look his sad brown eyes gave me that he felt somewhat guilty since he was the one that pushed for the rescue. “I’ll see you fellas in a little while,” Hinton said in the usual optimistic tone he has every time he goes on one of these errands. “Bye, guys,” was all I could manage before Hinton threw me against the wall. “Are you coming back?” he asked with the most serious expression I’ve ever seen him wear. “I hope so?” I replied confusedly. “You are. When will you be back?” “What?” “When will you be back!?” He replied again frustrated. “In a little while,” I said slowly as comprehension was finally dawning on me. “Yes, exactly,” he took his forearm off my chest. “Goodbyes are…,” he collected himself for a moment. “Mason said goodbye…” It was the first time I had seen Hinton lose his cool…but it was also the first time I had heard him talk about Mason. Hinton’s little brother had died early on, before we secured Clement. Hinton never told us what happened and we never asked. But I’m guessing that’s why he’s taken such a protective role towards the other survivors in Clement. “If ya say goodbye or bye or farewell or anything that indicates that this may be the last time you’ll see each other you’ll believe it.” “Sorry,” I said. Hinton smiled again and pulled me off the wall, “Don’t be sorry, just don’t say ‘See ya in bit.” I looked at Chase and Wonka, gave a weak smile, and said, “I guess I’ll see you guys in a little bit.” Wonka and Chase slipped Hinton and me our Fraternal grip, walked with us down to the stairwell entrance, and watched us as we walked to the door.
I just wanna scream at the top of my lungs
Just to try and scare this elephant off my chest
I feel the world pressin’ down around me
I just wish these vultures would give it a rest
Stop trying to make me into something I’m not
I have a hard enough time being myself
I wish this whole damn world would get off my back
I just wish I could share this with someone else
I can’t pay any of my bills
I’m an in debt 23 year old
I don’t wanna file bankruptcy
But my valuables are already sold
I’ve got no money
I’ve got no car
I’ve got no girl
And I’ll never be a star
Life is just a big clusterfuck
Mine is at least
I guess for most people
It’s just the nature of the beast
You work and work and work
Just to build yourself a nice life
For what? You’ll die at fifty
10 years before your wife
They say George Bailey was the richest man in town
Just because he had so many friends
If that’s the case, then I guess I’m cheap
Because I’ve got the friends, but I never use them
-Abe Lincoln"
If the night is darkest before the dawn,
then this must be four AM.
I’m surprised that nothing’s going wrong,
since I am, who I am.
I’m almost at the top of this hole,
the one that I’ve been digging.
My heart’s not getting heavier or my soul,
I just might be dreaming.
There’s nothing I can do, that ever seems to go right.
But I just keep pushing right on through, putting up a good fight.
I’ve landed back on my feet again, after a long flight.
A surprise since there’s nothing I can do, that ever seems to go right.
So don’t worry about the small things,
I’m the one who sweats them.
Even with the songs I sing,
I won’t soon regret them.
Life just loves teaching me,
all of its little lessons.
There’s nothing I can do, that ever seems to go right.
But I just keep pushing right on through, putting up a good fight.
I’ve landed back on my feet again, after a long flight.
But ever since I’ve met you, things are strating to go right.
Don’t you hate when you see that girl. It’s not always the same girl, but she’s always that girl. That girl that you don’t know anything about other than how you feel…That feeling that maybe love at first sight exists after all. That any bitterness you hold against the world’s seemingly ubiquitous aggression towards your happiness could melt off of you. Sometimes you don’t even know her name, nor do you care. Names aren’t even important in that scenario…just her and you. Don’t get me wrong. Names would be nice. Hearing your name come from her lips…uttering hers from your own. It would be nice, but it’s not necessary. All that is necessary is her to know that you even exist. Because that seems to be the worst part. When she’s so far away, and you know there’s no way you’ll ever be able to show her who you are; because she’s that girl…not just to you, but to everyone. You’ll just be one of those guys. So I guess what I’m saying is: Don’t you hate it that one of those guys will never get with that girl? Or more to the point, in said scenario…don’t you hate to be one of those guys?
